WASHINGTON D.C. – A Filipina has written an essay about
herself, her Filipino ethnicity and her fair-skinned son in the “My Turn”
section of Newsweek magazine, June 19 issue.
The article was titled “Emil’s Big Chance
Leaves Me Uneasy” with a subhead that reads: “If I use my son’s fair-skinned
good looks to pay for his education, am I being savvy or just selling out?”
Tricia Capistrano of New
York city, who is married to a Caucasian with ancestors from Sweden and Slovakia,
describes how she and her son became a sort of instant celebrity when they
visited the Philippines
two years ago.
She said she did not envy Brad Pitt and
Angelina Jolie with the most popular baby in the world because everywhere she
went in Manila, her son, Emil, was always surrounded by women ogling about how
cute and fair-skinned he was.
“My son is mestizo, of mixed race,” she
said as she describes herself as a brown-skinned woman with a wide nose which
she got from her mother.
She said she herself are fascinated by
the lighter skinned “because our islands were invaded so many times by whites
who tried to convince us that they were better and more beautiful than
us."
She went on to describe the 400 years of
Spanish rule and almost 50 years under the Americans. “As a result,
skin-whitening products fly off the pharmacy shelves," she said.
She joked that because most famous actors
in the Philippines
are of mixed race, she might send Emil home so he can become a matinee idol and
“fund our retirement.” While in Manila,
she said she also approached some friends in advertising if Emil can land a
commercial for diapers, cereal or maybe ice cream. But later, she said, she
realized that this would make her “a part of the system that can
sometimes make us dark-skinned people believe that we are inferior.”
She continued: “My mom, whose nose I
acquired, has one of the widest among her brothers and sisters. She taught me
to pinch the bridge daily so that the arch would be higher, like my cousins.
Most of her girlfriends got blond highlights and nose jobs as soon as they
received their first paychecks, almost as a rite of passage.
“As a teenager, I tried to hang out with
the mestizas, because I wanted to be popular like them. It was only when I was
22 years old and moved to New York, where people of different colors, beliefs
and sexual orientations are embraced, that I learned to appreciate my brown
skin, wide nose, straight, black hair and five-foot stature. Because of the
self-confidence I saw in the people I met, I found everyone-in the subway, on
the street, in restaurants-beautiful.
“When some of my friends in Manila express
disappointment that their children are not as light-skinned as Emil, I tell
them it doesn’t matter. And for a long time, I’ve been content with my decision
to skip my plans for Emil to be on the airwaves. I felt I was doing my share
for my brown brothers and sisters.”
But Tricia said that after meeting a
friend who told her she also worked her way to college because her parents
could not afford her education, she debated whether or not to proceed with the
plan to make Emil a star.
Tricia then went on describe how
expensive it would be for Emil to get an education. She estimated that by the
time he becomes 16, his college would cost about $500,000.
She said:
“Once again, I’m tempted to call that
agent. After all, I am sure other fair-skinned children are being chosen to
appear in Philippine commercials even as I write this. I know my boycott is
just an anecdote in the world’s bigger drama. The real stage is in my
decolonized mind. If my son ever lands a part on TV because of his color, do I
want to be the one who has cast him? If I use my son’s fair-skinned good looks
to pay for his education, am I being savvy or just selling out?
PHOTOGRAPH BY JAKE PRICE-WPN FOR NEWSWEEK